That’s how she gets you. Starts small and then escalates, but you never so no, so is she really doing anything wrong? You pay, pay and pay. You can always say no, but you don’t.
So when I use my dildo I don’t get hard idk if that’s a problem or I’m I really enjoying it and want to stay Limp but I do enjoy pumping my hole with it (used way to much lube)